neural matter

had a scare earlier.

mader's fingertips went all purple, and she was complaining of pain. actually, she was complaining about her difficulty to decide whether she was in pain, or the palm just got itchy. but the discolouration was real though. as was the fact that she couldn't use her left hand for a task as simple as squeezing a tube of toothpaste.

the complaint wasn't new. she suffered from the same thing before. had even visited two different doctors who couldn't figure out what was wrong with her.

i thought she could be suffering from blood poisoning. the pain started the day she cut her finger with a knife, and instead of cleaning the wound, she put medicated oil on it. when the bleeding stopped, the pain didn't. since then, she'd been feeling weird sensation on her left hand.

clinics were closed, it being the public holiday. took mader to the hospital instead. cgh. for once, mader was given a possible reason about the disproportionate pain from a knife cut; the injury could be neural. and she was scheduled to meet a neurologist.

poor mader. but i could see she was at least relieved to hear the possible explanation. she had been frustrated all this while, knowing that she was in pain, but no doctor could seem to explain why. it got so bad that she contemplated cutting her finger again to let the 'bad blood' out. this was before we knew it was not blood poisoning, of course.

and did i mention that the doctor who we met was a malay muslim? =D i am always proud to see a malay muslim doctor in hospitals.

and the neurologist..now i'm fantasising mcdreamy *naughty grins*